Divorce

My parents fight constantly the divorce is getting rough on me..my dads getting weaker my mom get sneaky... moments with them seem like hours when its only minutes.. I look at the picture and see peace but when I look in the mirror I see fear.. fear of what is to come I may be 18 but its tearing me apart.. mom is a cheater dads a drunk and me I'm hopeless.. I want to end it know my pain and suffering but I need to stay strong :'(

Moms

I look up at my mom with regret I feel awful when I yell at her.. its almost like I don't care I love her and I wish I could control the anger I have... I must not let her feel like a nothing I mean why would I want anyone to feel that way see my mom is a very special women and everyday I take her for granted I mean where would I honestly be without her.. on the streets, dead I need to appreciate her more then what I do I mean she did put me in this world shouldn't she be able to take me out. I often think when I have children and they treat me this way how will I feel will I wanna give up? Does my mom wanna give up? I hope not because again idk where I would be without her

First day

As I look around I often wonder who am I..am I just a nothing do I have what it takes to live in this harsh world...I then feel like giving up I'm a dark shadow in a dark room I'm hidden but what's around me there always has to be the white shadow that takes all the glory I often wonder if people see me as the white shadow or if I'm right and I'm the dark I don't wanna be noticed I'd much rather stay hidden or should I face my fear and realize that more then one can be the white shadow I guess ill never know but who am I again I ask myself am I someone or just a imaginative being that nobody will ever see